I've hit a roadblock in my choral life this year. I have two concerts that are in conflict and now I have to choose which one to focus on.
No matter what I do, one director and one choir is going to be disappointed in me. I've strived all year to be at every rehearsal I was able to make for both choirs (at the detriment of a third in fact) and making all of the concerts (and there were many). Now this. It all comes down to this.
It's still two months away but it's eating away at me.
On the one hand, I have a choir that I've been in for years but does very little on its own (focuses on being a guest performer for a High School).
The other, I've only just joined this year but I've had the opportunity to go with them to New York's Carnegie Hall and am being given the opportunity to pursue (read PURSUE not HAVE) a solo for the concert.
My loyalty is torn. The director of the chamber choir (smaller choir) I've known for years is going to be really disappointed if I choose the chorus (larger choir). However, I don't see any advancement in my choral "career" within the chamber choir. I think I've overstayed my welcome but leaving mid-season was never in the plans!!!
I wouldn't want to disappoint the director of the chorus either. I'm seeing that I'm being placed in a position of leadership within my section and for a "first year", that's very rare. Again, my opportunities are brighter with the larger group.
I've warned both directors of the conflict and have indicated "slightly" which way I'm leaning but I haven't heard back from one of them.
I loathe the idea of anyone being disappointed by me or my actions (or inaction).
1 comment:
kat, i hate that feeling, this being the exact feeling i experienced not 2 years ago, led to the end of choral conflict. You'll figure it out, and if not someone else will and let you know how it'll be.......oh goooood luck love!
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